ugh

I woke up about 3 and a half hours earlier than I normally do because of a splitting headache. I have chronic tension headache, which means that I get them pretty much every other day. It sucks, but whatever.

Anyway, today is supposed to be my 1000 calorie day. I tried to eat some leftovers from last night, but I could only eat a little of it and gave the rest to M. I'll just call it 200 calories and 3 carbs.


I'm not entirely sure why, but today feels kinda bipolar. And it has only just started. :( The problem with being emotionless is that the feelings still exist, and they just stack on top of one another...for weeks. And then I'll be angry for a day or two. And then I'll be happy. And then I'll be numb. And then I'll be whatever the fuck you want me to be...just shut up. Yeah...feels good.


Chilly again today. I'm going to try for a walk later regardless. If not, I'll be biking it up. I need to get back on the ab machine again...feel the burn!

Lunch: 400 cals, 6 carbs

Dinner: 400 cals, 3 carbs
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Today has been interesting indeed. I've felt a lovely bit of dizziness throughout the entire day. And I stayed right on track for my caloric intake, which makes me happy.

I asked myself today, "When will you stop?" and all I could think in reply was, "Perhaps when I've disappeared?" Hmm...morbid. I've always been a bit twisted in my thinking though, so whatever. :)

Oh, almost forgot, I did get my exercise in today. Only 1.4 miles again. Tomorrow morning I'm going to bike for 20 minutes, and then go for another walk in the afternoon. I'm excited because tomorrow is my 600 cal day, so hopefully I'll get a major burn going!